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~*~"When all this pain is justified, While all the time is passing by. Now is when we clench our fists.. Knowing we can fight through this. The hours and days are gone. The weeks and months are moving on. Can't they see that's nothing gonna stop us now?"~*~
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Mar. 23rd, 2006 @ 03:35 pm GOT A TATTOO..












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Nov. 5th, 2005 @ 05:23 pm My thoughts...
whats up people...i have been change... i woke up from this mask that i have allowed myself to live through... i am a new changed person... i am done living to please people and be there when they got no one else... and for real i am done... all you mother fuckers who have used you and thought i wouldnt realize you aint helping me like i am helping you... and i have sat back and analized my friendships with everyone... and i have realized very few people has met me half way..... and 3 4ths of the time its me doing everything.... and i am done helping people who arent there for me... you guys wont realize you have met your match till it comes to that point where you have no one else... and you think you have me... but you will get a rude awakening when it comes down to it.... and for me to truely be happy i gotta cut you out of my life... but you aint gonna realize i am gone till you need me... and for all you people who i have done wrong i am gonna find you and tell you i am wrong and i fucked up because i am truely happy and i can admit i have hurt people to bring myself up.... but now i am turning my life around and i can step up and take responsibility for the actions i have done to bring people down cause i wasnt happy.... and thats just how its gonna be... if you fucking with me... playin me... or taking advantage of my kindness... guess what mother fuckers that shits over cause i recognize what you doing and i am gonna beat you at my own game.... you just wont know it till it happens.... as of nov. 4th 2005 i am a changed person... i am truely content with who i am and i ca nstand up for myself and not allow people around me to bring me down like i tried to bring people down.... but i am out

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Sep. 15th, 2005 @ 08:50 pm My thoughts...
You scored as Green. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>

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Green

92%

Democrat

75%

Socialist

50%

Anarchism

33%

Communism

17%

Fascism

8%

Nazi

0%

Republican

0%

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Aug. 26th, 2005 @ 12:51 pm My thoughts...
How the fuck I feel!: confused
Fucking Music~: Cold-Happens all the time
what to say...what to say... i havent really updated my journal in a long ass time... and i am kinda wondering if i should anymore...i prolly still really only talk to a few of you on here any person anymore... and wondering who is really my friends anymore... i hate to say that but its true... i have only pushed my self farther away from you all due to personal experiences... and i apologize to most of you for that... but then again you also have pushed my away... you guys can always get ahold of me but most of you dont... its like everyone has changed and left some people in the dust... i hate how so many friendships come and go...

anyways... i am working 2-8 everyday... loving the job :) i am off this weekend yay! making an exceptable amount of cash.. but still nevering having money... i closed my bank account today... us bank fucking pisses me off... but oh well...its over with now...

how come when you are honest with a guy... he just tried harder... i went out with juan last friday... he shows up a half hour late...i was pissed cause it made us late and i missed about the first 15 mins of the movie..... but anyways i didnt really have a good time...so i told me that i just wasnt feelin it and ever... so what does he do tried hard.... hmmm... some guys just dont get t he picture....

havent really done much but work and sleep but there is not much more to do these days....not much really going on beside the usual me being confused and shit.... been thinking alot about my life... and how i wish i could just take two years of my life away...but i cant.... be trying to cope with things i have bottled up and sent to the back of my mind.... and its getting harder wit hevery second that i try... but i guess thats part of life...maybing even part of growing up...but who knows right.....

i am truly seeing people for who they are lately... and some of it i always knew deep down inside..... but others shock and amazing me... how well people hide from who they really are... that aggravates me... but what can ya do...

i hope everyone is doing good... and if ya ever wanna hang out my cell is: 937-626-1335 if i dont answer leave me a message... and i prolly wont call u till after 9 so if there is a better time to call ya just let me know... but hey i am outta here and i will see ya later


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Jul. 1st, 2005 @ 11:57 pm My thoughts...
whats up mother fuckers... welp its been a year since jamies death... and well its been a hard one but i am pulling through as always.... i got a new man.. hes a sexy bitch :) and well hes awesome... i am off till tuesday and then i start in the shoe department... my life is looking up in some aspects... but in others not so good.. but what can i say... lifes to good to die...

and to a certain someone... u were my best friend at one point and to throw it all away over a fucking decision i choose to make...I CHOOSE...i would never force you and i respect you enough not to do it around you or anything... but i guess i am just not a good enough person to be ur friend anymore... but its you who is throwing this friendship away... and once its gone.. its gone for good...so think long and hard about the and it you change ur mind soon enough you know my number...

well bitches i am out... holla

937-626-1335

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Jun. 24th, 2005 @ 09:44 pm My thoughts...
new cell call me after 9 on week days on anytime on the weekend 9376261335

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Jun. 15th, 2005 @ 06:38 pm Stole this from nik
The Basic Stuff
Name? Sara
Age? 18
Height? 5'4"
Weight? 165 i think
Birthday? 6/20/86
Birthplace? Middletown
Current Location? Middletown
School/Grade?
Zodiac Sign? Gemini
Chinese Zodiac Sign? Tiger
Righty or Lefty? lefty
Haircolor? Dark brown
Eyecolor? brown
Skin Color? Tannish
*About You*
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)? mother...
Any Pets? one
If So What Are They? A dog
Favorite Relative? i dunno...
Least Favorite Relative? my dad
What's Your Heritage/Race? 1/2 cherokee 1/2 soiux
Political Affilation? i dunno
*Love & Sex*
Sexuality? Bisexual
Are You In A Relationship Now? nope
If So, With Whom?
For How Long?
Are You In Love? yes but it doesnt matter
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex? Yes
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss? I dont remember.
Virgin? Nope
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time? 15
Was It Enjoyable? no
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone? ??? duh
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed? Neck
Best Love Quote? i dunno
*Your Friends*
Best? Jess
How Many Do You Have? alot... but only a few that i talk to anymore....
More Guys Or Girls? bout the same
Love Them All? of course
Any You Wish You Were Closer To? most of them
Oldest? jess
Newest? lee lee
Pen Pal? Keefo
*Friends And Words: Associate Them*
Pen: i dunno...
Flower: i dunno...
Pink: i dunno...
Window:i dunno...
Heart: Broken
Mother: Father
Bread: sandwhich
Insane: Sarabear...
Sunglasses: pink
Pimp: jerome
Cross: Dresser
Lonely: horrid nights...everynight
Car: i dunno...
Music: my life... the only thing i live for anymore
*This Or That*
Boxers or Briefs? Boxers.
Thongs or G-Strings? Thongs
Shorts or Pants? Pants
Shoes or Barefeet? SHOES
Books or Movies? Both
Night or Day? Night
Dark or Light? Dark
Mountains or Beach? mountains
Snow or Sun? Sun
Pepsi or Coke? pepsi
Guys or Girls? Both
Swim or Surf? Surf!!!
*For or Against*
Gay Marriage? For
Abortion? pro choice
Bush Getting Re-elected? well considering senators are trying to take out the 22nd amendment so bush can get re-elected AGAIN.... hell fucking no whould be my choice
Suicide? Against. May we not talk about that, please?
War? Against!!!!!!!!!!
Pants? ....
Clothes In General:ok
Penises? For.....I...guess...Uh...Yeah....For, definately.
*favorites*
Color? pink and black
Number? 22
Holiday? Halloween
Season? Fall
Movie? big fish
Book? harry potter
Magazine? I dont really read mags that much.
Food? Pizza
Drink? Mountain Dew
TV Show? trading spouses
Song? cold=no one
Band? pantera or the doors
Computer Game? None really.
Video Game? I do really have one.
Anime/Manga?
Shirt? my white one
Pants? my purple ones
Actor? None really.
Actress? See above.
Singer? jim morrison
Flower? daisy
Scent? No idea.
Animal? i dunno
Cookie? Chocolate Chip.
*he Future*
Want To Go To College? Yes
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? Musician
Want To Get Married? Yeah, it'd be nice.
Want To Have Kids? yes.
What Would Their Names Be? I dont know
How Many? three
Where Do You Want To Live? the uk or canada
Where Do You Want To Get Married? vermont
How Do You Want To Die? Happily
*more Stuff About You*
Piercings? tounge and lip
Tattoos? None Yet
Smoke? ya
Drink? ya
Do Drugs?
Skinny Dip? Sure, why not?
Greatest Fear? Loneliness
Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
Go To Church? Nope
Religion? pagan
Scars? ALOT!!!!
CDs Owned? A million.
Collections? I collect cds
Like To Be Naked? no
Ever Eaten Sushi? no
An Entire Case Of Oreos? Lol....yep.
Been On Stage? Yes
Danced In The Rain? Yeah
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex? Many times in one night!!
Weirdest Dream? the same one i have every night
Best Dream? :x
Saddest Dream? the same one i have every night
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True? one i never have anymore...
Think You're Attractive? Not really
Shoplifted? Nope.
Been Caught "Doing Something"? Yeah.
Weirdest Makeout Place? it the back of the car with my sis and my friend... and a guy
Like Thunderstorms? They're great.
Favorite Shoes? my sketcher flip flops
Favorite Quote? i dunno
Best Advice Given? :x
Worst Advice Given? ......
Favorite Song Lyric? Too many to put.
What Quote Says Most About Your Life? Once again, too many.
Glad This Is Over? ya
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Jun. 5th, 2005 @ 09:49 pm My thoughts...
got my mother fucking lip pierced... but i have a stud in it right now so i can cover it with a band aid at work... later
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May. 31st, 2005 @ 07:50 pm My thoughts...
lonliness is all i have....
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May. 26th, 2005 @ 12:11 pm My thoughts...
i passed my ged pre-test with awesome scores.. i am so proud of myself... i sent everything in today to get it done :) i love life right now but i am rather lonely anyone wanna help a girl out and fill up that loneliness part :) i love you guys test me or something 513-390-8682

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May. 10th, 2005 @ 07:14 pm My thoughts...
Is it all just a shape, a twist of fate, that leaves me open
Will it all fade away, from my life, and leave me broken
It's all just a game - as you left me here to wallow
It's all been a fake - and it's hard to swallow

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly

What if life were a dream - would you be there waiting for me
Suicide in a sleep - I'd rather die and have you miss me
And it all went away - the pain of watching you deny me
I've fallen again... inside

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly

I can't get away from myself... (so far)
I can't get enough of your love... (I can't escape)

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly










You believe every word I say

and always took the time to understand
You took my breath away,

is that you slipping right through my hands

Just like a shooting star falling from the sky
I wait for you to land Fly away don't shut me out,

cause I can't be without you
Run away come with me,

cause I can't be without you
When I wake up everyday
I need to know you're not so far away
Be without you
Open your eyes and open your life




Sara...
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May. 10th, 2005 @ 02:48 pm sorry i dont feel like doing a lj cut

Your Political Profile



Overall: 35% Conservative, 65% Liberal

Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal






Your Taste in Music:


90's Alternative: Highest Influence
90's Rock: Highest Influence
Alternative Rock: Highest Influence
Classic Rock: Highest Influence
Heavy Metal: Highest Influence
Adult Alternative: High Influence
Hair Bands: High Influence
Punk: High Influence
80's Alternative: Medium Influence
Progressive Rock: Medium Influence
80's Pop: Low Influence
80's Rock: Low Influence
90's Hip Hop: Low Influence
90's Pop: Low Influence
Old School Hip Hop: Low Influence
Ska: Low Influence





Your Linguistic Profile:



60% General American English

15% Dixie

15% Yankee

5% Midwestern

5% Upper Midwestern






Your Birthdate: June 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading.

The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.

Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.



You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.

You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.

It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.


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May. 10th, 2005 @ 01:45 pm My thoughts...

The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


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May. 8th, 2005 @ 09:53 pm My thoughts...
Good morning day
Sorry I'm not there
But all my favorite friends
Vanished... in the air
It's hard to fly when you can't even run
Once I had the world, but now I've got no one

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I... drown

Good morning day
Sorry you're not here
But all those times before
Were never this unclear
It's hard to walk when you can't even crawl
Once I had this world, but now I've lost it all

Drown...
Rolling faster than I'm breathing
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May. 8th, 2005 @ 09:36 pm My thoughts...
well kids not much to say here.. apparently i have changed... maybe thats me growing up some... hummm who knows... who really gives a fuck cause i dont...been working a whole hell of a lot lately.... so i have been busy.... same ole shit different day... later kids....

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Apr. 22nd, 2005 @ 05:29 pm hello hello
hey kids! hows life... ok here... kinda boring... been living on my own for 2 weeks now and loving every minute of it.. i dont have cable or a phone right now but i got my cell phone.. i am 4 days off.. so get ahold of me if u guys wanna do something...or just wanna stop by.. my room mate jess is fucking awesome :) yuppers... i honestly dont have much to say so i am sorry this is gonna be a short entry... but i think i am gonna go just call me some time.. take it easy <3
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Apr. 7th, 2005 @ 11:42 pm My thoughts...
How the fuck I feel!: excited
Well kids this could be my last entries for awhile.. i am moving out tomorrow.... muhaha... freedom.. very FEW people will know where i live and i want it to stay that way... let me just say this my house wont be a crazy minor drug hang out.. my house wont be a place where u think u can go when your hungry and shit.. YOU WILL NOT MOOCH OFF ME...please call before you come over.. and please dont take advantage or use me cause i have an apartment!!! thank you have a nice day...
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Mar. 28th, 2005 @ 02:09 pm My thoughts...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHELBY I LOVE YOU!!! WOOT WOO <333333
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Mar. 12th, 2005 @ 01:40 pm My thoughts...
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Mar. 9th, 2005 @ 02:12 am i love this fucking song <333
"Mr Brightside"

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 01:59 pm ...
"Anywhere"

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

[CHORUS:]
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

[Chorus]

[Silence]

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah

[Fades out]
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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 12:22 pm LIVEJOURNAL CUT...
comment to stay... very few will stay without commenting... so comment bitches :-p <333333 or if your not on my friends list and want to be comment

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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 11:16 am answer this bitches or die muhaha
1. Have we kissed?
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. if yes, Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. if yes, Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Do think I'm-
22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality
Do you think I'm-
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:
31. Boring?

Would you..
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Have sex with me?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if..
40. I kissed you?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you..
50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Wanted to have sex with me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me? *wink*:
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I..
61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:

Are you..
68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is your journal so I can anwser?
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Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 10:21 pm My thoughts...
Body: When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her
future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that

And yet Guys still dont get it, lol
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Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:53 pm stole this idea... sorry chika
if you could only say one last thing to me... or ask me one last question what would it be...
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Feb. 5th, 2005 @ 05:37 pm My thoughts...

Your Silver-Age Superhero Career
LJ Username
Your alias first-name is:
Your alias last-name is:
You can turn....
...into:
You team up with... seedlesssower
...to battle: Ben Affleck
You petition to join: Mensa
Their response: they agree, but only if you let them paddle you
You are best remembered for: your 64-point game against the Milwaukee Bucks
Your heroic level: - 18%
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Jan. 20th, 2005 @ 11:52 am My thoughts...
Hey kids.. you are now looking at a proud owner of a paid account on lj.. hehe... i change my layout.. go check it out :p later kids..
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Jan. 14th, 2005 @ 02:42 am My thoughts...
My soul it screams for you
can you not here it
my arms reach out for you
why cant you take them
my heart burns only for you
can you extinguish it
i love only to be loved by you
why cant you love me too

i long only to be held and care for
why cant it be
am i to die alone and bitter
what the hell is wrong with me
my face is blackened and my eyes are sewn shut
with fear and sorrow
i no longer wish to love anything
just cut the heart right out of me

sometimes i choke on all the false love
that infects me
sometimes everything is not enough to cure
the sickness inside of me

i did it all cried black tears for you
why cant you see see
like a vampire biting my heart
suck the love right out of me
dont even care as my blood stains the floor
cannot be cleaned
you cut me out and tore me through
six feet unders the place for me

i feel it all as it sickens me
it feels like im dying inside
because of the love i gave that cant be returned
my longing for instability is a personality flaw

i trust you with respect
and you tear me down
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Dec. 27th, 2004 @ 04:42 pm My thoughts...
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 04:07 pm stole from candace...
ANONYMOUSLY COMMENT WITH ONE OR MORE OF THE FOLLOWING


_a secret
_an insult
_a criticism
_a compliment
_a wish
_a bit of advice
_a death threat
_a love note
_a song
_a quote
_a picture

please do it =]
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Dec. 4th, 2004 @ 12:14 am My thoughts...
Do this its fucking crazy!!! it actually is true!









Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It takes about three minutes...it's worth a try :)

First..get a pen and paper. When you actually choose names, make sure it's people you actually know and go with your first instinct.

Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read ahead or you'll ruin it!

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column.














2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.












3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.












NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON"T TURN OUT RIGHT!




4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th,

and 6th spots.












5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.












GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!!




6. Finally, make a wish.













And now the key for the game.....






1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people about this game.













2. The person in space 3 is the one that you love.












3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't work out.












4. You care most about the person you put in 4.













5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well.













6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star.













7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.












8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7.













9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.













10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life




NOW...send this to 10 people within the hour you read this...IF you do..your wish will come true. If you don't it will become the opposite.
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Dec. 1st, 2004 @ 03:20 am My thoughts...
Give me 1000 comments in this entry. Of whatever, really. YOU, in particular, don't have to supply the whole 1000, but a tiny contribution would be nice. Then let me know if you post this in your journal and I'll return the favor.



this amused me... how many comments can i get.. lol i will see huh

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Nov. 27th, 2004 @ 10:43 pm i wanna be the one you wish for... but i know i never will be
Fucking Music~: Simple Plan-Welcome To My Life
i am sorry i am updating alot tonight... i am just bored.. and feeling a bit.. alone... i gotta work tomorrow...i actually have alot on my mind.. and i need it to just kinda disappear for a bit... and i dont really feel like spilling my guts over livejournal of all places.. i might make a private entry later but i am not sure... i think i am just going to go.. i dont wanna be on here cause i might say something i will regret... bye
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Nov. 27th, 2004 @ 10:07 pm My thoughts...
today was good i suppose... i had fun... good times... went to the movies and out to eat with my sissys abby and melissa... and abby brought her boy toy jason hehe.. hes awesome... but what i want to make this day happy wont happen so i wont hold my breath... i am out later kids im me if ya wanna talk
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Nov. 27th, 2004 @ 03:12 am My thoughts...
well i think i am off to lay in my bed of thoughts from that past that i dont want anymore... wish me luck... i am off here good night all..

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Nov. 26th, 2004 @ 11:20 am My thoughts...
There is quite a bit on my mind... but i dont even know where to start.... so i am leaving you with lyrics....

Sometimes Lyrics


I'm dreamin about tomorrow, I'm thinkin of yesterday, I consume myself in sorrow this moment in time is what I betray, I
am searching for the answers

[Chorus]
I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause I don't know which way to go, I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause my life
is spinning out of control

I never know what you want, I never know what you need, it was different from the start, when you cut me in two I never
thought I would bleed, but I am searching for the answers

[Chorus]

I will go this alone I don't need nobody's help, I've got to do this myself, Alone, Alone, Alone, Alone

[Chorus x2]
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Oct. 28th, 2004 @ 12:29 am friends cut
i cut my friends... if ya wanna be added back... comment
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Oct. 26th, 2004 @ 06:04 pm fuck you... forever
I won’t forget the day that, that I came to
And I started thinking, that theirs more
Then just perfect prom queens and silver spoons
And all I ever wanted,
Was someone to love me back to the bliss of ignorance
Cause I feel like running head first into traffic

And so I’m here to say
That life is best with pain.

I wont forget the day that, that I found god
In a kitchen knife now, and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor way, with my red life
And now so much of this pain is,
The pain I love, as I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like NY in an earthquake

And so I’m here to say
That life is best with pain.

I stand outside my pretty house
I light a match, to start the fire
I call the cops, to let them know
Its 22 Walthuree Ave.,
I thought I wanted this
I thought I wanted this

Nightmare child said…
I said I wanted, somemore attention
I thought I wanted, a story ending

I hate the pain, I hate the pain
I just cant win
I hate the pain, I hate the pain
I think that the truth is I’m scared
I think that I’m just scared to live
I think that the truth is I’m scared
I think that the truth is I’m everything that I hate.
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Oct. 26th, 2004 @ 12:38 pm My thoughts...
So let me take thee with a chainsaw, (Chainsaw)
and take the glass against your wrists.
You know I am your worst nightmare
Oh how you love my bloody kiss.
But its time to die
(Your worth more dead)

Tell me your fantasies
I'll make you believe
That I really care
I'll look into your eyes,
I'll tell you all my lies.
As I take you slow.

So let me take thee with a chainsaw (Chainsaw)
I'll leave you like your father did.
I'll bite your lip, so fucking, so hard.
And watch the innocence just rip.
rip down your chest, and into mine.

Tell me your fantasies
I'll make you believe
That I really care
I'll look into your eyes,
I'll tell you all my lies.
As I take you slow.

So take your tears and go away
So take your tears and go away
A bitter ending from a slow decay.
So take your tears and go away.
And I'll sit here with a smile and a match.

The pain, she cried, the heartache.
The lies, she cried, the heartache.
The life, she cried, the heartache
And your life, she cried.
And the heartache.
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Oct. 26th, 2004 @ 12:11 pm just fucking forget about me!
How the fuck I feel!: pissed doesn't even explain it
Fucking Music~: Senses Fail-Tied Her Down
Well i was gonna wake up today and get ready to go to mikes band practice... but i dont think i can go now... and i am quite upset... i have been used and lied to AND LIED ABOUT... let me get one thing straight with everyone.. i do NOT have any kind of std nor did i ever come out and say i did so whoever is talking shit needs to shut the fuck up....and let me just say this, if anyone i knew on lj had one i wouldnt talk about it on here so why is my name being brought up in this situation on LIVEJOURNAL... i would have enough respect for anyone not to go around saying shit that isnt true about someone and even if i thought it was true i would say ya sara confessed to having stds... CAUSE I NEVER FUCKING HAD THEM so i have nothing to confess to... so fuck off! i am tried of this fucking drama... i work all the fucking time but i am still involoved in peoples drama.. and i dont fucking realize how...i havent hung out with anyone in awhile nor have i even held a long conversation with anyone and where people are getting ideas that i have confessed to having std's... and talking shit about people my brother works with is BULLSHIT... from now on unless i really care about our friendship THERE IS NONE... i am tried of this shit that is going around about me..i dont go to high school and i DONT hang out with hardly any of you anymore so just fuck off... and your pleasure in talking shit... must stop get a new damn hobby... i just want to fucking disappear from most of you dramatic fuckers that like to start shit and get a kick out of people having to deal with drama... guess what.. i am done.. completely done with each and every person that has started drama with me.... i am tried of it.. i cant do this anymore.... and let me just say this... dont come and tell me a bunch of lies and except me not to find out who you really are eventually ... i am tried of this bullshit that is being said...half of my friends... i wouldnt even call friends anymore... i hard ly talk to anyone anymore because i work... so someone please explain how i could confess to having the clap, or talk shit about people to other people when i dont even have enough time to scratch my god damn head.... so dont go fucking running your god damn mouths about me... this drama.. has gotten way out of hand...and i want no part in any of you over dramatic pieces of shit anymore... KEEP MY FUCKING NAME OUT OF YOUR GOD DAMN MOUTHS AND THERE WILL BE NO FUCKING PROBLEMS... oh yea and have a great fucking day


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Oct. 22nd, 2004 @ 12:17 pm Eeeek
Yesterday i have to clock in an hour and a half early right... and i end up getting off at eight... which is fine... then i get my schedule for next week and i am off tuesday and thursday... i think i am getting a cell phone next week... meijers is sucking hardcore...but they are gonna train me on u-scan so i am to pissy... but my hours for next week suck..sun i work 245-1030..mon-115-745 tuesday i am off... wen. 545-1145 thursday i am off..friday-1230-830 ans sat.-2-10 grrrr man i am just so tired... if anyone wants to do anything thursday night let me know... and guess what sara is pying to get dsl back woot wooo... and a big big decision is coming up... moving to missouri... or staying in ohio.... .:sighs:. i just dont know well i am out later kids
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Oct. 15th, 2004 @ 12:12 am KICK ASS SHOW!
For all you Ohioans wanting to support the local scene, here is some information you might want to know. Note, the second band playing, Strayfist, opened for 40Below here recently and kicked ass!

THE SHOW IS CONFIRMED FOR OCTOBER 15TH AT THE ELKS LODGE IN CHILLICOTHE OH!!! Here is all of the important information:

Doors Open at 5PM

Dead Will Rise @ 6:00PM (30 minute set)

site: www.deadwillrise.com

Stray Fist @ 7:00PM (30 minute set)  (opened for 40 below summer)

site: www.strayfist.com

Soundtrack to a Beating @ 8:00PM (30 minute set) (opened for god forbid)

site: www.stabmusic.com

Agent Purple @ 9:00PM (30 minute set)

site: www.agentpurple.tk

Year of Desolation @ 10:00PM (35-40 minute set)

site: www.yearofdesolation.com

Abject Fear @ 11:00PM--> (30-35 minute set, many new songs for those of you who haven't seen us in a few months also opened for 40 below summer)

site: www.abjectfear.com

$3 dollars for 6 bands! October 15th, at the Elks Lodge, No Excuses!! All times are subject to change, each band will be getting 15 minutes to get their stuff torn down, and the next band will have 15 min to get theirs setup. selling chips/pop/etc for as cheap as possible just so you know.
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Oct. 14th, 2004 @ 04:52 am sleepless night..
How the fuck I feel!: crushed and lonely
I laid down for a bit... but no luck in sleeping go figure... god i miss him so much... i wish he was here holding me... singing his fav. songs... watching t.v. with me... bitching cuz i am making him eat.... damn it all to hell i miss him so much :( i would do anything to have him back... i am gonna go... :'(

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Sep. 10th, 2004 @ 01:57 am Musicians_Alike!
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Sep. 9th, 2004 @ 07:31 am Friends Only Bitches :-D


This is friends only bitches! Add me to be added... and Comment please...Now remember this is my journal and I may remove you when ever I feel like it..with or without a reason... but chances are if you comment every once in awhile, and you dont harassing anyone in MY journal (like in my updates) we will be fine... Keep the drama off my journal please... Thanks so much :)

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