~~With everyday that passes by ~~

GOT A TATTOO..

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 20:38:22 GMT

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 22:42:46 GMT

whats up people...i have been change... i woke up from this mask that i have allowed myself to live through... i am a new changed person... i am done living to please people and be there when they got no one else... and for real i am done... all you mother fuckers who have used you and thought i wouldnt realize you aint helping me like i am helping you... and i have sat back and analized my friendships with everyone... and i have realized very few people has met me half way..... and 3 4ths of the time its me doing everything.... and i am done helping people who arent there for me... you guys wont realize you have met your match till it comes to that point where you have no one else... and you think you have me... but you will get a rude awakening when it comes down to it.... and for me to truely be happy i gotta cut you out of my life... but you aint gonna realize i am gone till you need me... and for all you people who i have done wrong i am gonna find you and tell you i am wrong and i fucked up because i am truely happy and i can admit i have hurt people to bring myself up.... but now i am turning my life around and i can step up and take responsibility for the actions i have done to bring people down cause i wasnt happy.... and thats just how its gonna be... if you fucking with me... playin me... or taking advantage of my kindness... guess what mother fuckers that shits over cause i recognize what you doing and i am gonna beat you at my own game.... you just wont know it till it happens.... as of nov. 4th 2005 i am a changed person... i am truely content with who i am and i ca nstand up for myself and not allow people around me to bring me down like i tried to bring people down.... but i am out

Sara Bear

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 00:52:09 GMT

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Green

92%

Democrat

75%

Socialist

50%

Anarchism

33%

Communism

17%

Fascism

Nazi

Republican

What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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Fri, 26 Aug 2005 16:52:35 GMT

what to say...what to say... i havent really updated my journal in a long ass time... and i am kinda wondering if i should anymore...i prolly still really only talk to a few of you on here any person anymore... and wondering who is really my friends anymore... i hate to say that but its true... i have only pushed my self farther away from you all due to personal experiences... and i apologize to most of you for that... but then again you also have pushed my away... you guys can always get ahold of me but most of you dont... its like everyone has changed and left some people in the dust... i hate how so many friendships come and go...

anyways... i am working 2-8 everyday... loving the job :) i am off this weekend yay! making an exceptable amount of cash.. but still nevering having money... i closed my bank account today... us bank fucking pisses me off... but oh well...its over with now...

how come when you are honest with a guy... he just tried harder... i went out with juan last friday... he shows up a half hour late...i was pissed cause it made us late and i missed about the first 15 mins of the movie..... but anyways i didnt really have a good time...so i told me that i just wasnt feelin it and ever... so what does he do tried hard.... hmmm... some guys just dont get t he picture....

havent really done much but work and sleep but there is not much more to do these days....not much really going on beside the usual me being confused and shit.... been thinking alot about my life... and how i wish i could just take two years of my life away...but i cant.... be trying to cope with things i have bottled up and sent to the back of my mind.... and its getting harder wit hevery second that i try... but i guess thats part of life...maybing even part of growing up...but who knows right.....

i am truly seeing people for who they are lately... and some of it i always knew deep down inside..... but others shock and amazing me... how well people hide from who they really are... that aggravates me... but what can ya do...

i hope everyone is doing good... and if ya ever wanna hang out my cell is: 937-626-1335 if i dont answer leave me a message... and i prolly wont call u till after 9 so if there is a better time to call ya just let me know... but hey i am outta here and i will see ya later

<3
Sara Bear

"Happens All The Time"

I still hang on every word
in the world of faded memories
where your still in love with me
I can see it in your eyes
you look as if your major Tom has lost control

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you

If a dreams all that ive got
then I wish your in a fairy tale
where your still in love with me
I could see it in your eyes
the look as if your hero fell and lost his soul

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you...

To you...
To you...
To you...

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 04:02:09 GMT

whats up mother fuckers... welp its been a year since jamies death... and well its been a hard one but i am pulling through as always.... i got a new man.. hes a sexy bitch :) and well hes awesome... i am off till tuesday and then i start in the shoe department... my life is looking up in some aspects... but in others not so good.. but what can i say... lifes to good to die...

and to a certain someone... u were my best friend at one point and to throw it all away over a fucking decision i choose to make...I CHOOSE...i would never force you and i respect you enough not to do it around you or anything... but i guess i am just not a good enough person to be ur friend anymore... but its you who is throwing this friendship away... and once its gone.. its gone for good...so think long and hard about the and it you change ur mind soon enough you know my number...

well bitches i am out... holla

937-626-1335

less than three
Sara Bear

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:45:30 GMT

new cell call me after 9 on week days on anytime on the weekend 9376261335

Sara Bear

Stole this from nik

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 22:53:21 GMT

The Basic Stuff
Name? Sara
Age? 18
Height? 5'4"
Weight? 165 i think
Birthday? 6/20/86
Birthplace? Middletown
Current Location? Middletown
School/Grade?
Zodiac Sign? Gemini
Chinese Zodiac Sign? Tiger
Righty or Lefty? lefty
Haircolor? Dark brown
Eyecolor? brown
Skin Color? Tannish
*About You*
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)? mother...
Any Pets? one
If So What Are They? A dog
Favorite Relative? i dunno...
Least Favorite Relative? my dad
What's Your Heritage/Race? 1/2 cherokee 1/2 soiux
Political Affilation? i dunno
*Love & Sex*
Sexuality? Bisexual
Are You In A Relationship Now? nope
If So, With Whom?
For How Long?
Are You In Love? yes but it doesnt matter
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex? Yes
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss? I dont remember.
Virgin? Nope
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time? 15
Was It Enjoyable? no
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone? ??? duh
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed? Neck
Best Love Quote? i dunno
*Your Friends*
Best? Jess
How Many Do You Have? alot... but only a few that i talk to anymore....
More Guys Or Girls? bout the same
Love Them All? of course
Any You Wish You Were Closer To? most of them
Oldest? jess
Newest? lee lee
Pen Pal? Keefo
*Friends And Words: Associate Them*
Pen: i dunno...
Flower: i dunno...
Pink: i dunno...
Window:i dunno...
Heart: Broken
Mother: Father
Bread: sandwhich
Insane: Sarabear...
Sunglasses: pink
Pimp: jerome
Cross: Dresser
Lonely: horrid nights...everynight
Car: i dunno...
Music: my life... the only thing i live for anymore
*This Or That*
Boxers or Briefs? Boxers.
Thongs or G-Strings? Thongs
Shorts or Pants? Pants
Shoes or Barefeet? SHOES
Books or Movies? Both
Night or Day? Night
Dark or Light? Dark
Mountains or Beach? mountains
Snow or Sun? Sun
Pepsi or Coke? pepsi
Guys or Girls? Both
Swim or Surf? Surf!!!
*For or Against*
Gay Marriage? For
Abortion? pro choice
Bush Getting Re-elected? well considering senators are trying to take out the 22nd amendment so bush can get re-elected AGAIN.... hell fucking no whould be my choice
Suicide? Against. May we not talk about that, please?
War? Against!!!!!!!!!!
Pants? ....
Clothes In General:ok
Penises? For.....I...guess...Uh...Yeah....For, definately.
*favorites*
Color? pink and black
Number? 22
Holiday? Halloween
Season? Fall
Movie? big fish
Book? harry potter
Magazine? I dont really read mags that much.
Food? Pizza
Drink? Mountain Dew
TV Show? trading spouses
Song? cold=no one
Band? pantera or the doors
Computer Game? None really.
Video Game? I do really have one.
Anime/Manga?
Shirt? my white one
Pants? my purple ones
Actor? None really.
Actress? See above.
Singer? jim morrison
Flower? daisy
Scent? No idea.
Animal? i dunno
Cookie? Chocolate Chip.
*he Future*
Want To Go To College? Yes
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? Musician
Want To Get Married? Yeah, it'd be nice.
Want To Have Kids? yes.
What Would Their Names Be? I dont know
How Many? three
Where Do You Want To Live? the uk or canada
Where Do You Want To Get Married? vermont
How Do You Want To Die? Happily
*more Stuff About You*
Piercings? tounge and lip
Tattoos? None Yet
Smoke? ya
Drink? ya
Do Drugs?
Skinny Dip? Sure, why not?
Greatest Fear? Loneliness
Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
Go To Church? Nope
Religion? pagan
Scars? ALOT!!!!
CDs Owned? A million.
Collections? I collect cds
Like To Be Naked? no
Ever Eaten Sushi? no
An Entire Case Of Oreos? Lol....yep.
Been On Stage? Yes
Danced In The Rain? Yeah
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex? Many times in one night!!
Weirdest Dream? the same one i have every night
Best Dream? :x
Saddest Dream? the same one i have every night
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True? one i never have anymore...
Think You're Attractive? Not really
Shoplifted? Nope.
Been Caught "Doing Something"? Yeah.
Weirdest Makeout Place? it the back of the car with my sis and my friend... and a guy
Like Thunderstorms? They're great.
Favorite Shoes? my sketcher flip flops
Favorite Quote? i dunno
Best Advice Given? :x
Worst Advice Given? ......
Favorite Song Lyric? Too many to put.
What Quote Says Most About Your Life? Once again, too many.
Glad This Is Over? ya

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 01:46:33 GMT

got my mother fucking lip pierced... but i have a stud in it right now so i can cover it with a band aid at work... later

Tue, 31 May 2005 23:50:08 GMT

lonliness is all i have....

Thu, 26 May 2005 16:07:03 GMT

i passed my ged pre-test with awesome scores.. i am so proud of myself... i sent everything in today to get it done :) i love life right now but i am rather lonely anyone wanna help a girl out and fill up that loneliness part :) i love you guys test me or something 513-390-8682

less than three
Sara Bear

Tue, 10 May 2005 23:17:10 GMT

Is it all just a shape, a twist of fate, that leaves me open
Will it all fade away, from my life, and leave me broken
It's all just a game - as you left me here to wallow
It's all been a fake - and it's hard to swallow

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly

What if life were a dream - would you be there waiting for me
Suicide in a sleep - I'd rather die and have you miss me
And it all went away - the pain of watching you deny me
I've fallen again... inside

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly

I can't get away from myself... (so far)
I can't get enough of your love... (I can't escape)

And I wither away and die
Tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die
Clip my wings... without you I can't fly

You believe every word I say

and always took the time to understand
You took my breath away,

is that you slipping right through my hands

Just like a shooting star falling from the sky
I wait for you to land Fly away don't shut me out,

cause I can't be without you
Run away come with me,

cause I can't be without you
When I wake up everyday
I need to know you're not so far away
Be without you
Open your eyes and open your life

Sara...

sorry i dont feel like doing a lj cut

Tue, 10 May 2005 19:03:03 GMT

Your Political Profile

Overall: 35% Conservative, 65% Liberal

Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

How Liberal / Conservative Are You?

Your Taste in Music:

90's Alternative: Highest Influence

90's Rock: Highest Influence

Alternative Rock: Highest Influence

Classic Rock: Highest Influence

Heavy Metal: Highest Influence

Adult Alternative: High Influence

Hair Bands: High Influence

Punk: High Influence

80's Alternative: Medium Influence

Progressive Rock: Medium Influence

80's Pop: Low Influence

80's Rock: Low Influence

90's Hip Hop: Low Influence

90's Pop: Low Influence

Old School Hip Hop: Low Influence

Ska: Low Influence

How's Your Taste in Music?

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English

15% Dixie

15% Yankee

5% Midwestern

5% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Birthdate: June 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading.

The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.

Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.

You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.

It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Tue, 10 May 2005 17:44:18 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:52:19 GMT

Good morning day
Sorry I'm not there
But all my favorite friends
Vanished... in the air
It's hard to fly when you can't even run
Once I had the world, but now I've got no one

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I... drown

Good morning day
Sorry you're not here
But all those times before
Were never this unclear
It's hard to walk when you can't even crawl
Once I had this world, but now I've lost it all

Drown...
Rolling faster than I'm breathing

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:36:22 GMT

well kids not much to say here.. apparently i have changed... maybe thats me growing up some... hummm who knows... who really gives a fuck cause i dont...been working a whole hell of a lot lately.... so i have been busy.... same ole shit different day... later kids....

holla

Sara Bear

hello hello

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 21:31:47 GMT

hey kids! hows life... ok here... kinda boring... been living on my own for 2 weeks now and loving every minute of it.. i dont have cable or a phone right now but i got my cell phone.. i am 4 days off.. so get ahold of me if u guys wanna do something...or just wanna stop by.. my room mate jess is fucking awesome :) yuppers... i honestly dont have much to say so i am sorry this is gonna be a short entry... but i think i am gonna go just call me some time.. take it easy <3

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 03:46:31 GMT

Well kids this could be my last entries for awhile.. i am moving out tomorrow.... muhaha... freedom.. very FEW people will know where i live and i want it to stay that way... let me just say this my house wont be a crazy minor drug hang out.. my house wont be a place where u think u can go when your hungry and shit.. YOU WILL NOT MOOCH OFF ME...please call before you come over.. and please dont take advantage or use me cause i have an apartment!!! thank you have a nice day...

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 19:10:12 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHELBY I LOVE YOU!!! WOOT WOO <333333

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 18:40:27 GMT

i love this fucking song <333

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 07:12:35 GMT

"Mr Brightside"

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...

...

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 18:59:44 GMT

"Anywhere"

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

[CHORUS:]
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

[Chorus]

[Silence]

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah

[Fades out]

LIVEJOURNAL CUT...

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 17:23:17 GMT

comment to stay... very few will stay without commenting... so comment bitches :-p <333333 or if your not on my friends list and want to be comment

<3
Sara Bear

answer this bitches or die muhaha

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 16:16:28 GMT

1. Have we kissed?
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. if yes, Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. if yes, Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Do think I'm-
22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality
Do you think I'm-
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:
31. Boring?

Would you..
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Have sex with me?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if..
40. I kissed you?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you..
50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Wanted to have sex with me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me? *wink*:
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I..
61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:

Are you..
68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is your journal so I can anwser?

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 03:21:42 GMT

Body: When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her
future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that

And yet Guys still dont get it, lol

stole this idea... sorry chika

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 01:54:42 GMT

if you could only say one last thing to me... or ask me one last question what would it be...

~*~With everyday that passes by ~*~